"I don't want cerebral palsy"

Last night I lay beside my nine-year-old who was sobbing his heart out and crying, "I don't want cerebral palsy". It's heartrending to be totally powerless to take away such a burden from your own child. We ended up both having a good cry and chat about it, but it left me feeling pretty blue last night. I have dreaded these moments from the time of his diagnosis. Although I fret and complain (at times) about all the extra work that comes from his cp and diabetes, that is nothing compared to the pain of watching him suffer through these moments.